Friday, January 15, 2010

The CRT examination

Note: This post is mildly self centered. It is for my own good, and probably offers no entertainment value.

This coming week I will sit for the Certified Respiratory Therapist Exam. To say I am intimidated would be an understatement. I have been studying several hours a day for the last couple of weeks, done several mock exams... what am I so afraid of? So in order to ease my own mind I have listed The positives and Negatives of the situation.

1. I have passed most mock exams by a good 10 points.
2. I generally perform well under pressure.
3. I still have a job regardless if I pass on the first attempt or not.

1. Only ONE of my classmates has passed. 10 have taken it, 1 has passed it.
~This is enough information to send me over the edge.
2. Failing does result in yet another $190 fee.(I don't have)
Major prayer will be needed this week. MAJOR.

The thing about this exam that frustrates me the most is the simple fact that I won't use 70% of this crap I'm attempting to commit to memory. But, I suppose thats life.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

My New Years Resolution(s)

A New Years Resolution is something most people choose to participate in about this time every year. While most have the best of intentions, most do not live to see MLK day. When deciding my New Years Resolution, I wanted something that might actually stand a chance of at least surviving till Spring. So with careful consideration, these are the things I will try to do differently in 2010.

1. The obvious, and probably the most often used: I will lose at least 20 lbs. As my 10 year reunion is quickly approaching, it sure would be amazing to look at least similar to my appearance in high school.

2. If you know me at all, you know that I am very competitive in nature. This is not a trait that most people find attractive. So, this year I vow to be less competitive. The only way I really know how to accomplish this is to stay away from those situations where I may feel the need to be compete. While I do love the bored games, and other activities where there might be a winner... I realize that it's not exactly an endearing trait to want to win everything. So, until I find the middle ground, I'm steering clear those things.

3. Compromise. It seems as though(at least in my case), that with most things there is no middle ground with me. It is black or white... no grey area. I either like someone or I don't. I either don't care or I care too much. I desperately need a middle ground. So in 2010 I resolve to somehow find a middle ground.

4. Home Purchase. No further explanation needed. Rent is ridiculous. I'm not paying it.

5. Faith. I have recently come to the realization that my constant worry and stress shows a lack of faith.
"For our present troubles are small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don't look at the troubles we can see now, rather we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4:17-18
Whether Love, Health, Financial, Family... it does not matter. I will fix my gaze on Christ. I will look forward to the eternity I will share with him, and NOT the heartache this world has to offer.